Now is the time to act.

I am pissed, every year we have some sort of mass shooting in this country and what is to blame.  Some will say it is mental health but it come down to our gun laws.  No first off understand I am a hunter and I understand what a gun is for it only has one purpose and that is to kill.  I have used my 308, 410 and 44 magnum for hunting to feed my family in Rural Alaska.  I am in support of guns for hunting but you do not need a machine gun for hunting.  Come on you put to many bullets in to the body there is no meat left for you to eat.  It is BULLSHIT.  The NRA has to much control over the 2nd amendment it is a monopoly and we are guaranteed by the constitution to not have Monopolies in this country.

I have had students bring weapons to school but they were used for hunting after school.  Save for on incident when a student came in drunk and threatened to kill himself and come back and kill every one else in the school.  I told him as long as it was done in that order it was fine with me.  After his Uppa knocked him unconscious we loaded him to the schools truck and took him the village jail.  Although it is kind of funny it's not had he access to a weapon he would have use it. 

Schools today have police officers in them that they pay for taking money from the students.  A church I visited had an armed security guard.  what is a safe place anymore when you can't feel safe at school or church then you lock yourself inside you house and isolate yourself.  Students will prefer to stay at home and learn online missing out on the social interactions of the school setting. 

I am an advocate for gun control in the USA.  We have to have some limits on who can own a firearm.  If you think that everyone should be armed including teachers than you are sadly mistaken.  I don't care who you are that is a stupid and provable idea.  Trust me not all teachers are normal. 

I left teaching in AK because every year I lost at least one kid to suicide the last thing I would want to see in some kid coming back and shooting up the classroom.  My PTSD is already fucked up from losing to many kids that were close to me.  Ask any teacher and they will tell you how close they are to their kids.  In the rural villages these kids are in your home at dinner or in a Maqee (a steam house)  Yes you get naked in a steam with some students, it is a different world out there.  We had one of the first school shootings in 1996 in Bethel were a student came to school and shot the principal dead.  Now if you are from Alaska you understand Bethel and the problems with alcohol plus they had two gangs the dickies and the carhartts go figure.  Life in AK is a lot like the old west that is why I would never deny a hunter for his gun, they need to feed themselves and their kin.

Now is gun control the final answer, no it is not we need better health care in this nation especially when it comes to mental health.  While I was teaching in Galena most of the people were put on Paxil due to the long nights during the winter, it's depressing.  While in Barrow the northern most town in America I was on anti-depressant for the 24 hours of darkness.  Yes I was there when "30 days of darkness," was released and I didn't see any Vampires.

The long and short of it is this, kids are getting hold of automatic weapons and we need to stop it.  Not just automatic weapons but each year some teen is killed by fooling around with a gun in their house or a friends.  If we love our kids and want them to be safe and if you are a hunter be sure to school your kids on the proper use and cleaning of the weapon and take them out with you so they understand the consequences of their actions with a firearm.

With that said I will leave you in peace.  My view might not be popular but I guarantee it is the truth.  Feel free to differ with me but don't be surprised my response..  Much love and songs to you all my friends I hope to hear you are well and your opinions.

GordyC

I am really pissed off right now...

All right I am pretty pissed off about somethings public and personal.  First off let's deal with the Three year old acting A President Trump I think we need a grassroots recall election against him he is acting like a toddler and this has to stop he could do something really really bad for our country.  Granted it is funny as all get out but we are now the butt of all the world's jokes and trust me it's not fun being the punchline, I know.  He is just wrong for our country just like Wal-mart. 

I had a fall a few days back and cut myself above the left eye so I have some stitches and my face hurts so what do I do medicate myself with alcohol cause I don't have any pain pills I am using Ibuprofen  and some alcohol to kill the pain and I drank to much so one night I end up at CBI Community Bridges, Inc They are supposed to help the drunks and addicts to get detox and placement into a program to help you out.  so I go to CBI and I sleep off my drunkenness which is fine thank you then the guy to help get placement comes and says hey you have gone to all the night time places that we call for placement so you gotta leave and kicks me out of the place Fuck them  They do nothing but give you peanut butter sandwiches and  a place to crash for 24 hrs they suck they say they are going give you help but then then don't The nurse said I was going into de-tox but then they kicked me out the bathrooms never work and are worse than a jail's.

The rare time that I did get placed into a program which wasn't even a program "Start Living" out in Laveen was a halfway house that had you work for them You give them your FOOD STAMPS and then they send you out to wash dishes at some restaurants or at GCU (who fucked me over online and never dropped my class but gave me an F instead).    Then there is "Extended Hands"  a guy who thinks that God saved him from heroin but he uses steroids instead to pump him self up.  bed bugs and more indentured servitude they don't give any food but you can keep you r FOOD STAMP card at least so you can get something to eat and then everyday you place flyers on peoples houses early like at 4 am and then you walk 5 or 6 miles putting out the damned flyers.

This is what is available to people in Phoenix who want get off the street and make a better life for themselves.  don't even ask me about the shelter it is horrible out here so I am grateful for anything that people can do to help me out.  Life is hard and I don't w2ant to be a charity my plans are to go to south mountain community college and do their music business program so maybe I can do something right for the first time in life oh yeah and one last thing FUCK YOU TINA!!!!!

Today is a new day and I intend to make the most of it!!!  I love you all Save those who have no common decency and just kick a person out!!

Well her we are at the precipice of war do we really want to sacrifice our people  (sic) Trump is an idiot spouting stupid tings everyday.  We need to impeach him some how and  get him out of office before we send our kids and and friends into a stupid war.  this man is out of control thaat is my opinion now I can't use opioids for my pain control so I switch to to drinking which I don't really like  thank you arizona you are bullshit any more fuck this town.

Fear and Loathing in Phoenix

I had been hanging outside of the venue waiting for the speech to end up I was covering Trump's Phoenix speech for a local news rag just to keep me a float.  I was outside taking a smoke break when a black limo pulled up and grabbed me from behind.  "Are you ready for the night of your life?"  the very distinct voice came from behind me, it was the Donald!!!  Damn I didn't expect an exclusive or anything "I saw you over there in the press pit and it looked like you needed some time out of the pit."  I didn't know what to say but went along with it all.  Thomas Payne is the name and I am trying to write up an article on you sir, what can you tell me?  "Ahh Fuck that let's have some fun we're gonna go and get a friend of mine to paint this town red.  Hey Walden, the driver, let's go and get Joe.  Next thing I knew we were joined by Sheriff Joe Arpaio.  Damn to right wing nutters in a limo with a libertine this can't end well.

We pulled up to some casino and went in the back way to cut down on the papacrappi  we were whisked into an elevator and up to a hotel room.  "Anything you need we can get for you sir (an Indian porter told me as I cradled my champagne from the waitress outside)"  I sat down and tried to get my mind around what was happening President Donald was yelling orders into a phone while Sheriff Joe rocked back and forth repeating "this is gonna be great"

Ten minutes later a group of girls showed up with a dealer and some casino games.  we had our own private casino in the penthouse suite of some casino in Phoenix that I didn't even know about.  The Donald was doing blow off of the hookers ass while sheriff Joe was running around wanting to be butt fucked by some Latina hooker.  I just sat down and started playing Blackjack.  After about fifty minutes Donald wanted a Mexican Water show and Sheriff Joe wasn't far behind.  I stepped out for a smoke on the patio with a girl named Linda who was corralled into the whole party thing, she was working on her bachelor's at ASU in Nursing and this is how she paid her way through college.  It never bothered me so I gave her my winnings from the Blackjack table.  I asked the porter if he had any whip-its or if he could procure some for me and Linda  in less than five minutes we had a full tank of nitrous oxide keeping us laughing all night long.  We watched while The Donald built a wall of dead soldiers (Tecate he likes the mexicana).  And then demolish it while A half naked Sheriff Joe Bounced around pulling over latina hookers and paying them in blow.  What A night then I called for turkey bowling via room service.  To Be Continued...

George Orwell's self-fulfilling prophecy

Today I visited a few stores for prescriptions and my daily meals.  At almost every store there was an armed security guard.  Hell, I went to church on Sunday and there was an armed security guard.  I think some how we have become a Police state without any one saying anything about it.  Everywhere we go we are be recorded on video.  Everything is set up to watch you and anything that you do.  When I taught in a urban school in Alaska we had an armed Police officer. I think is more unsettling at least to me that there is someone there with a gun, that only has one purpose.  I don't like it, I don't like it at all next thing you know they are going to start checking our ID's (papers).  It just makes feel that we in some way are giving over our rights to the new American Gestapo.  Whether we like it or not we are becoming a fascist society.  we need to stop it before it gets to far out of reach or maybe it already has?!?!?!?!?!?!

I thank God that we have the for sight to stop it I think.  It seems that a few bad apples have made a mass hysteria for the rest of us and we are giving up our rights as citizens.

Or maybe I am just over blowing it  but I leave you with this:
                
Rise Against- the violence

I do love you all but I hate guns, we shouldn't have them in places to make us feel safe, at least I my self feel that just makes me feel uneasy.

Addenda

In light of my friendships to many people I am leaving the names out of this addenda.  But if you need to lie to me at least tell me that 3 inches is equal to 6 inches if your going to fuck me.

I've got some bitching to do and no one is safe.

Last night I went to the free Sugar Ray concert after the Diamondbacks game.  Now I don't usually bitch about other artist, well some times.  It turned out to be Mark McGrath and a drummer playing to a backing track doing songs from Sugar Ray and then other peoples tunes like Smash Mouth, EMF and House of Pain amongst others.  I thought it was pretty bogus but they were pushing Crystal Pepsi from the 90's and were focused on some songs from that era.  But still it was pretty Lame.  At least I got three T-shirts out of the show.

I lost my ID and then I tried to get my prescription for Oxycodone for my back, and yes I am seeing a pain specialist but the script was from my Primary Practitioner.  Walgreens in their infinite wisdom tells me that they cannot fill it but if I get a script for Percocet from the ER then they did.  and thus told me that they would no longer fill any scripts from an ER or short term painkillers.  I had a script from My Doctor for 90 pills and they wouldn't fill it.  They will gladly fill any other script from an urgent care or outside doctor save for my Pain pills.  I am sorry that I broke my back three times and have a disease that causes me to have chronic kidney stones (Renal Tubular Acidosis type 2) but I will gladly take my ibuprofen that my kidney doctor says is bad for me or the tylenol that will FUCK up my liver.  SO FUCK You TRUMP all about the Opioid epidemic.  The war on drugs has never been won nor will it ever.  Look at other countries and see how they tackle it.  I am just going to get my Medical Marijuana card and get extremely paranoid.

So back to my ID I am hoping that MY Alaskan ID is at Yellow Cab and I will try to get over there next monday I made it there last Saturday but told to come back on Monday.  I also lost my wallet that had my Food Stamps card so now I am sans ID, Library Card, Food Stamps, Social Security and Insurance Card.  FUCK MY LIFE, EH!?!??!?

So what to bitch about now, Hmm...Ok, Trump all though it is way to easy to complain about this moronic idiot that doesn't know his thumb from his big toe.  I don't know if North Korea has the tools to contrive a nuclear war.  I do know that they could easily blow the shit out of South Korea and I think that Kim Jong Il is just about crazy enough to do something like that.  Now I don't think that we should condemn the North Koreans for having a Nuclear Program nor do I believe that we should hinder any country from developing a Nuclear Program.  That is their right as a sovereign nation just like we did or Russia or any other Nuclear power.  Now do I think that he is a mad man, Hell yeah but than again so is Donald Trump.  He is worse than my old Uncle in Philly who would rant about the African-Americans, The Italians, The Jews and any other minority that got his jib at the time and of course he was not politically correct by any means.  I think the only ethnic group he sided with was the Irish because he was of that descent.

I am worried about My kids and Ex-wife and friends in Alaska because I think if the North Koreans were going to move forward they would go there first.  And remember AK was the only state other than Hawaii to see any action during World War 2.  You might not know it but it is true so I would not put it past them by any means.  With that said I need to thank two Republicans namely Lisa Murkowski and John McCain.  They both stepped up and said no to Trump and the Senate to keep Insurance for all Americans.

Not that anything I say will change the minds of any one or public opinion in any way but I need to give my two cents so there you go and apparently I've got 2 dollars and no sense.

Much love to you all and remember to let your freak flags fly!!!!

A moment in drunken history!!!

One of my favorite shows is Drunken History on Comedy Central.  If I could show it in classes I probably would but until then I would recommend everyone to watch it.  So I thought that it went national this week when I saw the reviews coming in from Trump's trip European trip.  WHAT THE FUCK!!!  Who the hell did the Electoral College elect to lead us into the grave.  A total Fuck nut and a half.  I realize he is already worse than Reagan was and kinda liked old Reagan, It wasn't til college that I truly realized how fucked up his administration was.  But this is bad.

Pulling out of the Paris Accord is Bad, just Bad.  I know that he wants to repeal NAFTA over twenty years of getting fat off of it but fucking up everything that we have worked for is monumentally stupid.  Now I could sit here and spout Expletives about it but what good does it do now is the time to start using our combined smarts and work around this idiocy.  Whether or not you like this is happening to our planet.  Now you can sit back and say it is God or Allah or whatever But WAKE THE FUCK UP!!  Go ahead and pray all you want but things aren't going to change until we change.  Get up off of our fat asses and start making a difference.  Once a species is gone, guess what...It's gone.  Bringing back the Mastodon is a pipe dream people what is the sense in it. it wouldn't survive.  We have screwed up our environment.  We use to many plastic bags that go to the dump and then blow out and destroy the environment and kill animals.  The more we kill off the insets that eat our wastes the worse the planet gets.  The reason that we bacteria is to bio degrade our dead and rotting bodies but what do we do we shove the the dead into boxes and embalm for years on end.  We have this fear of change that we need to get over and accept that the only way we progress as a society and a world is to change.  Buddhists change with new science realizations and thank the Gods that we have a progressive pope who is embracing change,  We need to stop living in the past and move with the waves that we are given.

I know that there is a rift that has polarized our political climate and that only causes gridlock.  I am asking to put aside petty differences and look at what we have right now and how can we make it better.  If not that then go and Fuck yourselves!!!

Last thing,  It is fucking hot here in PHX I don't know how you all do it I am so in need of a pool day, If any one has a pool I promise to bring the food lets have a cook out and relax from the heat.  Also I am working on getting my Fat ass down to Tucson to actually record and hopefully play some shows if I can line them up.  I hate being stagnant and I feel Like I am right now but.  It is getting better I am getting better both physically and Mentally.  I've got close to 4 months sober now so I am feeling pretty good about that.  Peace out to you all and have a great day.!!  Much Love and good Karma to you all!!

The times they are a changin' mark 2.0

The times they are a changing
this we all know and see
the pipelines are a leaking
and no one wants to clean it up
I guess that we're just fucked
we build a wall to hide our
fears and forget the other side
I guess you can't choose your
neighbors, but that's ok we'll
call the cops we don't like them
any way.

And what about that medicine
that you need to keep alive
we'll just go and charge alot
it's noit really a crime
Thomas Payne wrote a thing
but that's ok we don't need it
we got diamonds and we're rich
fuck the other guy that always
been our creed we don't give a
flying fuck about anything
the Apache or the Cree.

Well Donald Trump will steal your
gold it's just business any way
I never had a better friend help
me out in such a way
Jesus taught things in parables
any way It's all for interpretation
this way or that a way...
Our religions better than yours
because we don't have to pay
but in this climate it doesn't matter
any way we'll register you as christian
or a Jew, a Muslim or a Buddhist we don't
care in this store just give us all your
money before you walk out the door
thank you for you time it really was the best...

Ok here we go...

I feel I may need yo explain myself to my friends and colleagues in the great fight against the machine.

This is how I feel about the wall that the Donald wants to build:  There were some great walls in history the great wall of China, the walls of Jericho from the bible, the wall that divided east and west Berlin.  Now the Marshall plan was set out to help rebuild Europe after World War 2.

I apologize if my spelling is off or crazy my back was manipuplated by a physical therpist yesterday and now I have have shooting pains through my arms into my hands and legs and the CORE Insti4ute wont see me until Feb 2 so I am fucked up til them I guess.

Back to the Walls.  These walls were put up up to keep people out thus causing the feeling of you are our enemy and we want nothing to do with you.  This feeling increased over time and in the case of the Berlin wall it peaked in the cold awr during the 80's with Ronald Reagan and Gorbachevs reactions to each others foreign policies.  Now a wall to keep out Mexicans will only tell Mexico we do care about you and we think that you are our enemy.  we are not building a wall against Canada which have people crossing the borders alla of the time to get beer or prescription drugs and working in the US just like the Southern Border.  and I am sure that their are illegals that cross that border every day but we dont hear about it.

I understand the want for Isolationism in America to take care of our own and focus on our country rather than the rest of the world.  But we have aalready made a precedent that we are the worllds Police force and now things are running amok out in the boonies so what are we going to do]-.close up up and create out own Escape from New York type of scenarioas or be welcoming to our neighbors and be a freiendly nation that wants to trade and be great and move forward!!!

Sorry I have to stop now my fingers are freakeing the fuck out and jumping on there own to weird I gotta get some relief or this is going to kill me...Rhetorically of course that iss

Much loove to you all and I wiqll keedp up my daily things about trump simply because so many people did it to me when Obama took office.  Soory if you dont like and are thin skinned but suck it up buttercup this is the new world order!!

Gortdy peace our!!

My take on the Dakota protest and other stuff

I am sure that alot of you have heard about the protest going on in North Dakota about the pipeline going through there and how people are responding.  The one great thing about America is the First Amendment:

The First Amendment guarantees freedoms concerning religion, expression, assembly, and the right to petition.  It forbids Congress from both promoting one religion over others and also restricting an individual’s religious practices.  It guarantees freedom of expression by prohibiting Congress from restricting the press or the rights of individuals to speak freely.  It also guarantees the right of citizens to assemble peaceably and to petition their government. 

This is the basis of the country in that we can have Catholics, Jews, Hindus and guess what Muslims get over your selves their allowed here.  And we have the right to Peacefully assemble which is going on right now in North Dakota.  Does that give the authorities the right to pepper spray them, I don't think so But I wasn't there was there a threat to their safety I don't know but as a History teacher, yeah the University of AZ was stupid enough to give me a piece of paper.  I think the native people of the Americas have a natural right to protect their land.

One article said imagine if the tribe wanted to run a pipeline through Arlington Cemetery.  How many people would be up in arms about that well guess what the USA is trying to run it through their sacred lands just like Arlington is sacred to some.  It comes down to point of view.  We as the Majority of Americans think we have this Manifest destiny that we have been taught about in school and only learn the history of the victors that we consider ourselves to be.  Stop and read some real history people were here long before Europeans came get over it go ahead and elect your stupid Donald or Hillary FUCK up the environment some more why not it is written in the Texas approved History books that WE know what is best like Coal and Fracking and other ways to mess it all up.  We need to look at our development as Evolution.  We started with something that was bad, thats a given, move on to something better oh yeah you make money off the old stuff.  Guess what there is nothing there to back up your paper money we have been off the gold standard for decades with a new millenium we need a new way of thinking.  maybe looking at the native ways of knowing and understanding isnt such a bad thing.  Just sayin take it or leave it I don't care, No you know what I do care so quit your bitchin about people who don't believe in your God and have differnet beliefs than you and Make America great again not by industry but by being the Dog faced mutts that we are the dumping grouind for people who want a better life. 


Post note I am an idiot for not knowing the right Dakota in which this is happening 

Ready to bust a nut if I don't get this out...

As most of you know I am getting married to the most honorable and beautiful Tina Spring.  I am very happy about this and feel very good about it what I don't feel good about is that my boys won't talk to me and that hurts but I know why and I am trying to rectify it.  Yeah I owe a lot of back child support and I own that but you know what I wanted to talk to my dad hell even if he was a fuck up like me.  But here's the scoop I am getting my shit together I got a new doctor who understands me and is helping me out I feel better everyday.  And my friends who can tell me to my face how I am screwing up they I have hella respect for.  I don't need little dogs snapping at me feet, I know who is real and who isn't it's just the way it is and that's ok I dig it.

Idon't know I feel reborn once it got cold.  There is something about the Alaskan cold that will cut a weaker man down or you can stand it when it gets cold.  I love this land and I will be back I am only going south for a while I know you can't go back home but it will be nice to visit.  I am different than before maybe a little bit rougher on the outside but still the same old freak you all know.  I am looking forward to seeing everyone and having some fun we need to cause this election year is way to fucked up fo r us all.  I only hope you in AZ pass the marijuana law before I get down there or I'll have to do some campaigning and I don't mind that!!!

So to the nation state we have right now what the Fuck People taking knees at the national anthem Fuck that People DIED so you can be free the least you can do is stand when the flag goes up and the song reminds us of the sacrifice that our forefathers made for us.  Get over your petty fighting and start working in the community Race doesn't matter we are a cauldron of immigrants born from all kinds of lands looking for a better life the aboriginals are the ones who should be in charge cause we fucked them over time and again.  But I understand that people want to make a  splash for some cause they support hell I do it too but you know what are we teaching the kids when a sports guy gets 5 million for running with a ball and the guy who discovers clean energy gets the shaft it's fucked up!!!

So who am I voting for I like Jill Stein She makes sense and is smart we need someone who is smart not a career politician an outsider who can see the big picture. Ok that is about all I have to say right now but I feel more will be coming soon.  And if you want to come to the wedding it will be Jan 7 in Text me for more info.  Love to you all.  Hey Connor and Ethan I love you guys and you are invited I would be so happy to have you there.  But do what you want?!?!?!?!

Peace Out
I love you all long time!!!!

The Donald (a modern day election protest song or beat poem or whatever you want it to be)

WARNING:  I tend to use some racial slurs in this creative work not that I use them in my everyday language or belief system but I will do my best to edit them to keep the integrity of the the work.  And yes this is sarcasm I am not 100% a dick maybe 99.98% according to my exes but that is open for debate when I kick the bucket.

The Donald

Everybody here's the news
You've got to hear today
There's a brand new thing coming your way
The Donald that you used to know
Has come back to roost his hens
And trump your card
While thumbing up his nose
There ain't no need to disagree
Valet parking is free today!!!

We need to build a wall
To keep you rascals out
There's no need for you to see
What we do up in here
Close your eyes
You'll realize
Deportations coming clear

And the damned Canucks
Don't give a fuck toss me
Out on their ear
The only thing we have to fear
Are n@&$@&s, S@&$s and queers

We'll keep our borders closed
Screw the tired and the weary
The red man don't need no reservation
Fuck'em we'll rezone

It's all about the dollar bill
Here sonny take a bribe
They don't need no retirement
When they're gettin old they'll die
Soylent green is people
Since their heading down the road

A hotel on every city block
My picture everywhere
Nothing ever seemed so grand
Not even Tianamen  square

My wife you see she doesn't matter much
I bought her overseas you got to save a penny
When your buying duty free

Now my advisors will be like the apprentice
Making millions on the air
I'll prattle and I'll rattle and shake them from the sky
I don't care how it's done but those Mohamed's have got to fry
You see we're big on one religion
And I think you know it's best
Now pick up your cross, let go see the boss
Cause the trump is being played

It's easy to tease my hair
I'm not that unaware
But damn don't I look sexy
With a spray tanned dereair
I've got lots of gold and shiny things
And people wipe my ass
I don't ask them where their from
But I pick them up at Home Depot
By the truck load, taxes free and clear
So if you'd like to cast your vote
Don't be timid and don't be shy
Remember in November
That I am the only guy!!!

So I have to rant really bad right now, I have a tendency to bottle things up and then they explode so here goes the explosion.  I broke My FUCKING back again this is the third Fucking time it has happened I am sick and tired of fucking dealing with pain.  You go to the fucking doctor and they say well you have gone to the ER to many times and we think your druggie Fuck you I have my own addictions and I own them get off my back with you need to go to therapy well you know what I went to therapist and she fucked up my marriage and then turned around and sued me and my ex Vivien Tincher is the worst fucking therapist out there don't go to her.  Now my Provider wants me to go to pain management which I can deal with but she started with the therapy thing and I said screw that I have no problem with physical therapy but you get a fucknut with a degree from Wayland Baptist university what the fuck is that??  I know Caveat emptor but still Uggggg.

That done.

We had a fire at the place that I am staying at we call it the compound.  There is a house and abig garage/shop with a conex attached to it we all live together kind of like a commune with every body pitching in and we have RV and campers as well.  Well the shop caught on fire and went up quick it was pretty horrific you feel the flames from 30 yards away.  The mat-su fire dept responded with about 4 trucks, no body was hurt but all the stuff is gone we got most of the 4 wheelers out and bikes but still there stands a burnt out shop with all of tools gone.  I guess Shiva was in a prime mood, eh? Yet we bugger on A little fire ain't gonna stop us. 

Now for my reflections on the presidential race.  WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!

All of a sudden I feel like I am back in Andrew Jackson Days The field has gotten pretty close right now Trump is Trump just like Jackson rallied the people it's a machine a big big money fueled drug induced machine that will tear through America.  Go ahead Build A wall you know what's gonna happen it becomes 1984 cameras are already everywhere we have no privacy so why not shell ourselves into a caldron of mixed up who haw do the purge.  I still like the green mountain boy in the rub so we'll see how it a shakes out

Anyways gotta run they are kicking me out of the library right now so peace my brothers and sisters and word to your muthas.  I am gonna go and try to write a song about something pleasant, like..........

Roger Waters needs to write something other than the fucking wall!!!

Hey kids how are you doing?  I hope you all had a nice holiday break.  I am sorry that I have not ranted in a while but some evil buttmunch went and hacked all of my accounts and left me kind of virtualess is that a word, well it is now.  So what has been happening in Gordy's World.  First I will bring you up to speed about myself (like you reallycare but it might give you a good laugh you never know) and then I will delineate what I see wrong in the world and how we should fix it.

I totally missed the President when he came up here back in August, I wish I seen him but they probably have me on some watch list somewhere.  Anyways I have been hiding out in the Butte, Alaska just out side of Palmer.  With some good friends of the redneck persuasion and it is kind of fun.  these peoepl helped me out when I was homeless and by the river bed so It feels like an adopted family in a commune we got something like 10 people living there and up to 20 at times so go figure.  They are good folks and I love them to death.  I think that is one thing I have been really dealing with is looking at things through others eyes.  Perspective is a bitch at times but we need it to keep us sound and peaceful if not we get fucking Donald Trump.  Hey "American Pie" just came on the radio on the puter creepy I love that fucking song.

So I was going to go back to school and actually switch to Alaska Pacific University for another Bachelor's but this one in Marine Biology.  I think with all of this warming we are going to be seeing some things we haven't seen before and I kind of want to be on the front line of that shit if you catch my drift.  But I have medical issues I posted a while ago that I gots a cyst on me right kidney well it is getting bigger every time they do a fucking catscan it gets bigger so stop doing the scans you fucking stupid doctors You already know I have kidney stones what bloody piss isn't enough for you.  ahh fuck them any way.

I talked to my eldest who is now going to Mt Edgecumbe a boarding school down in Sitka,  He told me not to call him anymore I guess I expected it but you know me I will still call.  Just get over it Connor I am your dad and I am going to be in your life whether you like it or not. And when I got back on to Face book I got a message from my Ex-wife asking how I knew he was going to school down there.  I am his dad I will always find him, duh???

Ok enough about me now on to things I want to bitch about.

Isis was a queen that built temples for her dead husband all over the Egyptian areas.  I don't recognize Isis as some terrorist group.  Once you give them validity they have won.  A Jihad is in essence a holy war we have been doing this for thousands of years Christians against the Muslim and you know what it will continue until people stop and realize that there are all kinds of religions in this world.  And as for Mr. Trump and his Wall there was a wall built back in the 60's and it ultimately failed as will yours you can't just put up a wall we are a nation of immigrants already get over yourself the only people who have any right to the land are the natives and look what we did with them it's all bullshit and they know it and the day will come when they will rise and stop dealing with these loads of crap.

What else am i pissed about 
The gun thing.  You are never going to get gun control passed that is our right as citizens what you have to do is work with it.  This is an armed nation, I don't have a gun I don't like them they only have one purpose.  But it is that right that keeps us different from other nations and free So don't tread on me. Don't you remember I am a ninja I'll cut you down before you pull the trigger.  besides there is no honor in guns, but that gets me into a whole nother thing that I don't want to rant on right now.

In AK Ethan Berkowitz our new mayor in A-town is doing good I think but I haven't been there so I can't say first hand but I like what I see so far go job!!
And our governor Bill Walker is doing pretty good but I think it might be time to take some earnings from the PFD to fund education.  it is really getting the shaft right now.  a one time only dip into the fund for education I think would be better than starting a state tax.  Just sayin'

And one last thing I am kind of getting sick of the I am an inuit commercials can we cool them off a little I know that you are Inuit and I respect that but there are also Athabaskans, Yupik we are a melting pot of people here in this whole wide world.  We don't need in fighting to bring us to reason we need to use that gray matter in our heads for something other than brain pudding.

Please feel free to comment or add your own opinion this is just one of a crazy sourdough Alaskan.

Donald the Trump

oy vey, what can I say about the Donald??????   Well lots of things here is an egotistical freakazoid who eats pizza with a fork???  My mom would smack me if I used her utensils to dish out a piece of pizza.  Mister Hoity Toity I own all of the hotels and golf courses because I've got a shriveled little weiner that only a Rusky could love.  Cold cold cold and lots of gold no wonder they want kill off all of the salmon in bristol bay for a gold mine because he used it all up bugger you Mr. Twat I know your kind and thank God I don't work in the corporate world or it would be like the Monty Python skit where one business pirates the other in real life.

So he wants to build a wall.  I remember a wall that was built back in 1969 in Berlin is that what you want?  

So I offered a handout to donny and took him to vegas for a week.  He just needed to you know chill out.  But can that guy do blow, Holy shit it was worse than HST.  He lined up 14 hookers and snorted it all off their asses like there was no tomorrow.  Then he orders a round of tequila to be served by the toes of the hookers. I couldn't believe myself he was a nut running back and forth like a little hamster on meth.  So things took a turn for the worse he made some bad comments about races, horse  races not other thing you know.  So we were bounced out of caesars palace and reduced to the motel 6 on Van Buren.  All in all it was a wild ride and I dropped him in Lukeville at the border so he could do his business.

So things are good in AK we got a great new Mayor for Anchorage Ethan Berkowitz is cool I think he is doing a good job and slowly inch by inch, centimeter by centimeter, millimeter by millimeter we are turning this state back to blue.  I am sorry that Begich lost his seat to numbnuts  but hey

API & Providence need to learn their ABC's.

I have become to cynical to much of a curmudgeon for being so young but I have to say what I feel if I don't then I get all of this pent up aggression and I want to beat up something to stupid to be...well you know.  Anywhoo, Getting old sucks you have all these new pains and aches and then you go to the doctor and they say here's some pills take these and come back if you don't feel better.  All the side effects that they have cause anything from dementia to loss of peepee power or for God's sake lack of total libido.  and they want you take these so you'll feel happy.  You know what I don't feel happy, FUCK YOU!!!  You know what makes happy not being in fucking pain and feeling comfortable.  You want to keep me alive and a working part of society then fill my needs then I'll fill yours.  It's is a dog eat dog world out there and if you scratch my back I'll scratch yours.  But then you get some hotshot pencil dick who thinks he is God's gift to medicine and they tell you I know what is best for you.  FUCK THAT, I know what is best for me I've survived more shit than your mother made giving birth to you dim witted psycho babbling pissant.

Now, I feel a little bit better.  Kind of like Joe Pesci as Nicky in Casino you know what I mean. You got to get it out or it burns a fucking hole in your stomach and you don't need that shit.

Gawd where do I go from there.  Shit.  I know, I found out that my Mom is still Kicking.  I kind of expected that from her she is tough old sourdough and you can't shake her.  So I guess I should be planning my way back east some time to see her and my family.  Don't worry I promise to be civil.  Except for maybe a couple of people, who shall remain nameless.  Nah I'm Fucking witchya.  You did me a solid and I appreciate more than you know.

You know as I gets older I am starting to think maybe I ain't so dumb, I know alot of people would disagree with that statement but hey screw' em I don't need them any how nor do they need me.  It's all good in the try to find some balance between the good and the bad the light and the dark.  Shit I've been in the dark for so long there's gotta be a fucking light at the end of the tunnel.  I am one of those the cup is half full kind of guys but some times the the cup ain't full of water if you catch my drift so you learn to to take the bad with the good and not freak out over it to much.  ah hell tomorrow's just another day.  I've got more scars than I do old girlfriends, I've liked my wounds and I've paid my dues all I ask is that you respect that.  it's a two way street I respect you and you respect me and we part our ways agreeably.  I think we tend to forget that in life that we need to show each other kindness and compassion, I know I do so I look to those like the Dali Lama or Thich nat Chan hell even Jesus or Mohammed for that matter and sometimes Shiva comes along to destroy it all so I can work on rebuilding it.  it's not who you believe in but that you believe in something I get that and I do.   believe in myself and the tao.  Ok my side hurts like hell so does my shoulder I've got no place to stay tonight and it's raining outside.  Whupdodedoo, thank you Universe for giving me this.  I now some how I will survive...I always do.

Peace out my friends and don't let the man get you down and always question authority!!!!

P.S. API I don't need fucking Zoloft I am a dextro head get it through your fucking head two dissaccoiatives do not make a right.  People are going to use drugs they always have and they always will.  Marijuana makes me to paranoid so I don't do it Cocaine would make my head pop off.  I am not that fucking ignorant and neither are most of the people that you service.  And your doing a shit job dealing with Autism.  But you did address my pain better than Providence has.  Plus the fact that Providence is like some ever growing organism that reaches out like a parasite leeching all of the good stuff out of life.  ewww. No Bueno Bad Juju.

Ok that's all I think well maybe I don't know I will probably have something to complain about tomorrow like Lisa Murkowski worrying about renaming Denali instead of doing her real job and doing something good for the state it's like a laughable abbot and costello show with Lil' abner in Don Young as our ever present representative who is so frought with dementia it ain't even funny.

Screw it all I'm off to the races not Nascar I think it's fumes that all the people go for I'd rather watch someone run faster than the other guy or horse.

G'night and keep yer stick on the ice!!  Sorry, Red Green.

Through a glass darkly

This has not ben an easy week for anyone.  I could bitch and complain about things but that leads to no end.  In times like these we need Healing.  There is an open wound in America, just like on my foot(Didn't I tell you a sewer gator jumped out and bit my left foot) and it needs to heal.  The one good thing is that we all know that when a bone is broken it it heals 2 times stronger.

We can't stitch this one back together we need to make a bond that is stronger to keep us united.  Don't worry about what the rest of the world sees us as right now.  We need to recuperate and get stronger and then come back out swinging, because that's what you do in life.

Yes it was a racist attack, Yes it was a terrorist attack and Yes it was American on American attack.  We invented the terrorist strikes during the war for independence.  All the world has looked to us as the original rebels and there is disorder in our house.  Now there were others I don't mean that we actually invented guerilla warfare but, we sure as hell perfected it.  

What we need to do now is retreat and heal there has been to much racial tensions all around the USA.  Lets worry about something more than us like the climate and our environment.  we are to self occupied by these simplistic things that we forget the big picture and in the end.  Boom. Big a batta boom.

So, what are we gonna do destroy ourselves or heal ourselves.

And by the way there is only one use for a gun.

Anchorage City jail tour for yelp!!!lady

I was arrested I went to jail, it was actually pretty comical way I got there, of course it would be.  I had been squatting in my Dorm/Apt. for about a less than a week.  When I decided to cook some steaks.  Well, I used the Frying pan and the fire alarm went off and I am not supposed to be in there and there was a warrant for my arrest from evil-overlord Wal-Mart.  Did I need the incense burners well the dorm room was smelling a little off.  So my defense for the Wal-mart charge was going to be The Officer didn't give me my miranda rights but my Public Pretender (defender) Mike Graper, whom I fired saying it was a long shot.  So I ended pleading out to a no contest.  But what I did this time was to take not of the prison facilities around Anchorage and the way people are treated.  I like to think as not being a hardened Criminal but rather nice kind of guy.

I go to use the phone in the cell block and am told that I am using the wrong phone.  That's the black phone and that one's the Samoan phone.  Well, ok I was born in the philipines so which one is used for that!!  Welcome to Racism 101  From a young black man and then again at meal time all Black men were fed before anyone else. I apologized to Fat Albert and his crew.  I then gave up my phone call to to my attorney a one I would for many time.  Now if my Attorney would talk to me and as to a human being and not child for that matter.

Most of the guards at AJ Are pretty good, although one rather demeaning lady would rather have had us on 24- hour lock down mean ole bitty needs to get laid don't take it out on us. so I gets Floor bunk the boat a piece of plastic and a mat that has more bed bugs than you would expect.  Not a step up from Brother Francis I should say.  I got moved around to two different types half way houses, my property( things I had on me) One's more lax'ed you can Smoke in them.  Plus I red 10 while in their.  now I have to catch up on my x-wing series and star trek.

I have no problem with my paying debt to society for the stupid things I do.  Have at it as a whole the one thing I would take away from this to say to my sons what I did was wrong.

inmate 559940

Shenanigans at UAA

So I am being booted out of my dorm and not allowed to register for summer classes do to a balance that I supposedly owe the University.  Back in the spring of 2014 I put in my application for the graduate program in Teaching and Learning.  I applied for my FAFSA with no problems and started taking classes, eventually I was admitted to the program.  That's where things got weird.

I was going to classes off and on after being homeless for four years it is a hard transition back into school so I didn't actually do any thing but My grades as a graduate student were A's and B's .  Then they said I needed to pay them for the semester, well why didn't my Guaranteed student loan pay for it.  Oh, because you were accepted into the program later.   Then I got MRSA. (3 weeks in hospital)

So, After my medical upheaval which was not fun at all and is still messing with me.  I tried to get back into the school groove.  I thought I should take some easier classes and still I failed myself.  so I am gonna keep keep'n on and go on a walkabout Fuck it all fuck it no regrets!!!!

Music is the one thing that matters so I am going full ahead with my kickstarter for a new album and Let's Horn Up!!!
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