Donald the Trump

oy vey, what can I say about the Donald??????   Well lots of things here is an egotistical freakazoid who eats pizza with a fork???  My mom would smack me if I used her utensils to dish out a piece of pizza.  Mister Hoity Toity I own all of the hotels and golf courses because I've got a shriveled little weiner that only a Rusky could love.  Cold cold cold and lots of gold no wonder they want kill off all of the salmon in bristol bay for a gold mine because he used it all up bugger you Mr. Twat I know your kind and thank God I don't work in the corporate world or it would be like the Monty Python skit where one business pirates the other in real life.

So he wants to build a wall.  I remember a wall that was built back in 1969 in Berlin is that what you want?  

So I offered a handout to donny and took him to vegas for a week.  He just needed to you know chill out.  But can that guy do blow, Holy shit it was worse than HST.  He lined up 14 hookers and snorted it all off their asses like there was no tomorrow.  Then he orders a round of tequila to be served by the toes of the hookers. I couldn't believe myself he was a nut running back and forth like a little hamster on meth.  So things took a turn for the worse he made some bad comments about races, horse  races not other thing you know.  So we were bounced out of caesars palace and reduced to the motel 6 on Van Buren.  All in all it was a wild ride and I dropped him in Lukeville at the border so he could do his business.

So things are good in AK we got a great new Mayor for Anchorage Ethan Berkowitz is cool I think he is doing a good job and slowly inch by inch, centimeter by centimeter, millimeter by millimeter we are turning this state back to blue.  I am sorry that Begich lost his seat to numbnuts  but hey

API & Providence need to learn their ABC's.

I have become to cynical to much of a curmudgeon for being so young but I have to say what I feel if I don't then I get all of this pent up aggression and I want to beat up something to stupid to be...well you know.  Anywhoo, Getting old sucks you have all these new pains and aches and then you go to the doctor and they say here's some pills take these and come back if you don't feel better.  All the side effects that they have cause anything from dementia to loss of peepee power or for God's sake lack of total libido.  and they want you take these so you'll feel happy.  You know what I don't feel happy, FUCK YOU!!!  You know what makes happy not being in fucking pain and feeling comfortable.  You want to keep me alive and a working part of society then fill my needs then I'll fill yours.  It's is a dog eat dog world out there and if you scratch my back I'll scratch yours.  But then you get some hotshot pencil dick who thinks he is God's gift to medicine and they tell you I know what is best for you.  FUCK THAT, I know what is best for me I've survived more shit than your mother made giving birth to you dim witted psycho babbling pissant.

Now, I feel a little bit better.  Kind of like Joe Pesci as Nicky in Casino you know what I mean. You got to get it out or it burns a fucking hole in your stomach and you don't need that shit.

Gawd where do I go from there.  Shit.  I know, I found out that my Mom is still Kicking.  I kind of expected that from her she is tough old sourdough and you can't shake her.  So I guess I should be planning my way back east some time to see her and my family.  Don't worry I promise to be civil.  Except for maybe a couple of people, who shall remain nameless.  Nah I'm Fucking witchya.  You did me a solid and I appreciate more than you know.

You know as I gets older I am starting to think maybe I ain't so dumb, I know alot of people would disagree with that statement but hey screw' em I don't need them any how nor do they need me.  It's all good in the try to find some balance between the good and the bad the light and the dark.  Shit I've been in the dark for so long there's gotta be a fucking light at the end of the tunnel.  I am one of those the cup is half full kind of guys but some times the the cup ain't full of water if you catch my drift so you learn to to take the bad with the good and not freak out over it to much.  ah hell tomorrow's just another day.  I've got more scars than I do old girlfriends, I've liked my wounds and I've paid my dues all I ask is that you respect that.  it's a two way street I respect you and you respect me and we part our ways agreeably.  I think we tend to forget that in life that we need to show each other kindness and compassion, I know I do so I look to those like the Dali Lama or Thich nat Chan hell even Jesus or Mohammed for that matter and sometimes Shiva comes along to destroy it all so I can work on rebuilding it.  it's not who you believe in but that you believe in something I get that and I do.   believe in myself and the tao.  Ok my side hurts like hell so does my shoulder I've got no place to stay tonight and it's raining outside.  Whupdodedoo, thank you Universe for giving me this.  I now some how I will survive...I always do.

Peace out my friends and don't let the man get you down and always question authority!!!!

P.S. API I don't need fucking Zoloft I am a dextro head get it through your fucking head two dissaccoiatives do not make a right.  People are going to use drugs they always have and they always will.  Marijuana makes me to paranoid so I don't do it Cocaine would make my head pop off.  I am not that fucking ignorant and neither are most of the people that you service.  And your doing a shit job dealing with Autism.  But you did address my pain better than Providence has.  Plus the fact that Providence is like some ever growing organism that reaches out like a parasite leeching all of the good stuff out of life.  ewww. No Bueno Bad Juju.

Ok that's all I think well maybe I don't know I will probably have something to complain about tomorrow like Lisa Murkowski worrying about renaming Denali instead of doing her real job and doing something good for the state it's like a laughable abbot and costello show with Lil' abner in Don Young as our ever present representative who is so frought with dementia it ain't even funny.

Screw it all I'm off to the races not Nascar I think it's fumes that all the people go for I'd rather watch someone run faster than the other guy or horse.

G'night and keep yer stick on the ice!!  Sorry, Red Green.

Through a glass darkly

This has not ben an easy week for anyone.  I could bitch and complain about things but that leads to no end.  In times like these we need Healing.  There is an open wound in America, just like on my foot(Didn't I tell you a sewer gator jumped out and bit my left foot) and it needs to heal.  The one good thing is that we all know that when a bone is broken it it heals 2 times stronger.

We can't stitch this one back together we need to make a bond that is stronger to keep us united.  Don't worry about what the rest of the world sees us as right now.  We need to recuperate and get stronger and then come back out swinging, because that's what you do in life.

Yes it was a racist attack, Yes it was a terrorist attack and Yes it was American on American attack.  We invented the terrorist strikes during the war for independence.  All the world has looked to us as the original rebels and there is disorder in our house.  Now there were others I don't mean that we actually invented guerilla warfare but, we sure as hell perfected it.  

What we need to do now is retreat and heal there has been to much racial tensions all around the USA.  Lets worry about something more than us like the climate and our environment.  we are to self occupied by these simplistic things that we forget the big picture and in the end.  Boom. Big a batta boom.

So, what are we gonna do destroy ourselves or heal ourselves.

And by the way there is only one use for a gun.

Anchorage City jail tour for yelp!!!lady

I was arrested I went to jail, it was actually pretty comical way I got there, of course it would be.  I had been squatting in my Dorm/Apt. for about a less than a week.  When I decided to cook some steaks.  Well, I used the Frying pan and the fire alarm went off and I am not supposed to be in there and there was a warrant for my arrest from evil-overlord Wal-Mart.  Did I need the incense burners well the dorm room was smelling a little off.  So my defense for the Wal-mart charge was going to be The Officer didn't give me my miranda rights but my Public Pretender (defender) Mike Graper, whom I fired saying it was a long shot.  So I ended pleading out to a no contest.  But what I did this time was to take not of the prison facilities around Anchorage and the way people are treated.  I like to think as not being a hardened Criminal but rather nice kind of guy.

I go to use the phone in the cell block and am told that I am using the wrong phone.  That's the black phone and that one's the Samoan phone.  Well, ok I was born in the philipines so which one is used for that!!  Welcome to Racism 101  From a young black man and then again at meal time all Black men were fed before anyone else. I apologized to Fat Albert and his crew.  I then gave up my phone call to to my attorney a one I would for many time.  Now if my Attorney would talk to me and as to a human being and not child for that matter.

Most of the guards at AJ Are pretty good, although one rather demeaning lady would rather have had us on 24- hour lock down mean ole bitty needs to get laid don't take it out on us. so I gets Floor bunk the boat a piece of plastic and a mat that has more bed bugs than you would expect.  Not a step up from Brother Francis I should say.  I got moved around to two different types half way houses, my property( things I had on me) One's more lax'ed you can Smoke in them.  Plus I red 10 while in their.  now I have to catch up on my x-wing series and star trek.

I have no problem with my paying debt to society for the stupid things I do.  Have at it as a whole the one thing I would take away from this to say to my sons what I did was wrong.

inmate 559940

Shenanigans at UAA

So I am being booted out of my dorm and not allowed to register for summer classes do to a balance that I supposedly owe the University.  Back in the spring of 2014 I put in my application for the graduate program in Teaching and Learning.  I applied for my FAFSA with no problems and started taking classes, eventually I was admitted to the program.  That's where things got weird.

I was going to classes off and on after being homeless for four years it is a hard transition back into school so I didn't actually do any thing but My grades as a graduate student were A's and B's .  Then they said I needed to pay them for the semester, well why didn't my Guaranteed student loan pay for it.  Oh, because you were accepted into the program later.   Then I got MRSA. (3 weeks in hospital)

So, After my medical upheaval which was not fun at all and is still messing with me.  I tried to get back into the school groove.  I thought I should take some easier classes and still I failed myself.  so I am gonna keep keep'n on and go on a walkabout Fuck it all fuck it no regrets!!!!

Music is the one thing that matters so I am going full ahead with my kickstarter for a new album and Let's Horn Up!!!
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The irritation of an Asshole

I am an asshole I know that and I am ok with it so I get to speak my peace anyways.  The past few weeks and months have been pretty spectacled by stupid people and stupid thinking.  I had hope that we in most part had moved on from the primal race card and accepted that we are a nation of immigrants with an ancestry from all around the world.  Save for the Native Americans no one has the real right to question or comment on what our nation is doing to itself.  We are all dog faces, the mix breeds that should rise above the the stupidity of seeing a person just for colour.

The riots in Baltimore were stupid, but I understand why they happened the tension across the nation was so thick you could taste it.  So now not have only polarized our bicameral government but we are polarizing those that are for the police and those against.  There is no one to blame but ourselves for buying into the feeds from the media.  We are so in love with the 24 hour news cycle that we can all get our 15 minutes of fame on their one way or another.

This recent biker gang throw down that happened in Texas started me thinking of my days as a kid outside of Philly and I remember hearing about the Hell's Angels and I was intrigued as latch key parochial school kid could be.  There was a bar in the town I lived in I think it was called Phil's and the bikers would always park there and drink and the stigma was that it was a bad place to go.  Same in Tucson I remember A couple of biker bars that we all tried to steer away from.  Why?  I have no problem today going into such an establishment.  I adhere to no gang or any such organization.  I guess you could call me Geneva because I really don't care what they do as long as they leave me alone.  I have seen the gang mentality in High school here in Anchorage and have broken up incidents with peaceful accord.

I think we really need to look at where and why their are gangs in our country.  We have always been a gang culture since our inception even the natives had tribes that battled each other.  Is one gang better than the other, no but it is no secret that biker gangs have been formed out of a lot of veterans of wars that have come back and have that band of brothers mentality.  There is nothing wrong with that I know so many of them that I almost admire some for the familial bond that they have with other members.

I think if we take anything and put it on tv people are going to be drawn to it and find some sort of solace or vindication through the stories that are produced and then it is a small jump to real life.  When we actually promote a show that is ripped from the headlines people are drawn to it.  it is called rubbernecking  we all want to see the bad thing and think that we can handle it.  Think of the cops that see death every day, that's why they drink or use hey need that escape it is the unwritten prescription for handling he job.  Guess what most of us teachers drink too.  There is nothing new happening today that didn't happen 30 years ago.  Hell we even have another oil spill.  just more proof of that those who do not understand history are doomed to repeat it.  Way to go.

I really wanted to write a bunch of cuss words like Fuck, shit, bitch, cunt, damned evil old whore.  But I really don't see the need for them right now so anyways...  Back to you regular scheduled Facebooking or porn watching or whatever you do on the internet.

Of nukes and history

I have been following the nuclear talks with Iran for a long time.  Being a cold war kid I grew up in the shadow of Vietnam and i don't believe there was ever a day during the 70's when it wasn't mentioned on the news or in some discussion through out the day.  The men and women who fought in that war and Korea will always have my respect as well as the two great wars.  with that said I have a very unpopular position when it comes to Iran and a nuclear program.

at the end of the 70's when Americans were taken hostage in Iran I was only around 10 and thought we were on the verge of nuclear holocaust.  I remember the tv stations played a min-series called either the day or morning after.  it scared the hell out of a lot people who didn't understand all of the propaganda that went along with it all.  I know you want to know my opinion but hold on.

While I was at the University of AZ I took a class on Iran and left it realizing that like our own country they have their propaganda machine that does not necessarily represent the will of the people.  I was actually quite taken by the class and would like to visit their sometime.  With that all said I feel that we have no right to hinder another countries scientific growth.  Our nuclear program was born out desperation in wanting to win in the pacific theater of WW2.  Do I think that Truman should have dropped the bomb.  Hell no.  But I wasn't around at that time but we get to see the effects from the radiation.

Iran is a sovereign nation and have every right to have their own nuclear program.  This idea that we are the worlds police force is bullshit.  I used to believe that since we were the real last superpower, save for China, we had a responsibility to police.  Now I like to think I am bit smarter and grayer I see that we still have our own problems to worry about.  Not to worry about Israel, Iran.  Shit let them blow each other up.  I don't come to that thought lightly.  I have friends who live in Israel and are part of their armed forces.  the last thing I want is to see them hurt.  Yet, I don't see it as my fight.  I know we hold ourselves responsible fro Israel, pretty much because we made them.

Our history of being the only country to use an atomic weapon does not rank us as knowledgeable but as guilty of two of the worst destructions ever.  I think we should still research and use Atomic power until we can get the world on board for cleaner sources of energy.  but given coal based versus Nuclear.  I would opt fro nuclear.  I mean how else are we gonna get the toxic avenger.

Religion and Law

Lately I have been reading a book on Buddhism and Law and it has made me think about some of our history and laws that we have.  Hammurabi's Code was one of the first sources of law in our world.  but as we have evolved as a society many off shoots have been developed and incorporated into our cultures.  While I am reading this book I am entranced by a country that is so in grained in religion that it seeps into the laws of the land and it made me think of our own country.  We have a Republic at least some sort of semblance of one and we have some pretty screwed up rules but the most primal of those come from either human decency or some sort of spiritual text.

I believe in Science and there are rules within science as well thus categorizing it into a type of religion in my book.  I consider religion to be a group of people with alike ideals who submit to certain rules and regulations within itself.  therefore Science could be categorized as a religion in itself that it has a group of like minded people looking to achieve a better life or planet or such.

I really think we can move forward if we start to shed some of the older thinking and find something new.

Jonas Saullk

Vaccines are good they help our immune systems I don't understand this need to not vaccinate children.  The amounts of mercury that might be in a vaccine is minuscule to the protection that a vaccine provides.  I never thought that we would see measles shine its face again but it did and due to the lack of immunization.  We can be sure that the medical community wants to keep people alive.  As a parent I for one want my kids to have every protection against some horrible disease that is out there.  A strong immune system will keep our kids healthy!!!

the 800 lb gorilla in the room...

Ok nobody has said it but here it is This is my theory on the disappearances of the airliners.  Now you can call me a kook or whatever.  They flew into a micro black hole born out of the LHC finding the "God" particle.  Opening a universe within a universe can only lead to random fluctuations within time-space.

Je Suis Charlie

I need to rant about the Charlie Hebdo and Boko Haram problems that are going on.  We have always been the dog faced nation it's what we have now and will always be.  We need to be there for these people if we want democracy to survive bad things are happening not only over there but here as well, we are acting scared we need to look at how we change the world not through violence but by peaceful demonstration Civil Disobedience that is what changes the way things are not by fear and terrorism.  I support the French people and share in their grief over what simple minded people have done.  We need to educate people only with an education can you be dangerous to the status quo and seek the change that you want to see in the world.

New year, new attitude.

I was hit with a lot of stuff this week I found out that my ex-wife has had a daughter with her new husband and my boys now have a sister and I am pretty much out of their lives except for times when I get to see them.  I guess I have to accept that and acceptance can be really hard but this to shall pass.  I am have moved on and now I am ready to enjoy my new life I can feel a roller coaster ride coming on and I think it will be a good one.

I do have to rant on one thing that I found out.  I just read in a magazine that their are plans to drill to the center of the earth over in Europe.  A large part of me says that this is a bad idea.  Not just to the loss of life but what it might ultimately do to our planet.  I like to think of the planet as a living organism and drilling straight to the heart of it is really bad juju.  It's just my two cents take it or leave it.

I got Connor a video camera that is kind of like a GoPro so he can record stuff and hope fully he will.  It was weird My ex dropped off Ethan and took Connor away in the car so I visited with Ethan and he is doing really well and going to be wrestling soon.  I am so proud of them both.  I guess they got grounded for some reason and had their doors taken away from their rooms which I thought was kind of harsh.  But he wouldn't tell me they they got grounded?  I worry about them but they seem ok Ethan was pretty emotional just seeing me and kind of cried and said that he missed me and Connor  said he missed me and gave me a hug through the window as they drove off.  I really don't know what to think my head is spinning with all kinds of thoughts but I have to be faithful that things will shake out in the end.

To all of you out there Never mind the bullocks and Up The Irons Hail to the new year, eh?  and keep your stick on the ice.

Gordy