I am really pissed off right now...

All right I am pretty pissed off about somethings public and personal.  First off let's deal with the Three year old acting A President Trump I think we need a grassroots recall election against him he is acting like a toddler and this has to stop he could do something really really bad for our country.  Granted it is funny as all get out but we are now the butt of all the world's jokes and trust me it's not fun being the punchline, I know.  He is just wrong for our country just like Wal-mart. 

I had a fall a few days back and cut myself above the left eye so I have some stitches and my face hurts so what do I do medicate myself with alcohol cause I don't have any pain pills I am using Ibuprofen  and some alcohol to kill the pain and I drank to much so one night I end up at CBI Community Bridges, Inc They are supposed to help the drunks and addicts to get detox and placement into a program to help you out.  so I go to CBI and I sleep off my drunkenness which is fine thank you then the guy to help get placement comes and says hey you have gone to all the night time places that we call for placement so you gotta leave and kicks me out of the place Fuck them  They do nothing but give you peanut butter sandwiches and  a place to crash for 24 hrs they suck they say they are going give you help but then then don't The nurse said I was going into de-tox but then they kicked me out the bathrooms never work and are worse than a jail's.

The rare time that I did get placed into a program which wasn't even a program "Start Living" out in Laveen was a halfway house that had you work for them You give them your FOOD STAMPS and then they send you out to wash dishes at some restaurants or at GCU (who fucked me over online and never dropped my class but gave me an F instead).    Then there is "Extended Hands"  a guy who thinks that God saved him from heroin but he uses steroids instead to pump him self up.  bed bugs and more indentured servitude they don't give any food but you can keep you r FOOD STAMP card at least so you can get something to eat and then everyday you place flyers on peoples houses early like at 4 am and then you walk 5 or 6 miles putting out the damned flyers.

This is what is available to people in Phoenix who want get off the street and make a better life for themselves.  don't even ask me about the shelter it is horrible out here so I am grateful for anything that people can do to help me out.  Life is hard and I don't w2ant to be a charity my plans are to go to south mountain community college and do their music business program so maybe I can do something right for the first time in life oh yeah and one last thing FUCK YOU TINA!!!!!

Today is a new day and I intend to make the most of it!!!  I love you all Save those who have no common decency and just kick a person out!!

Well her we are at the precipice of war do we really want to sacrifice our people  (sic) Trump is an idiot spouting stupid tings everyday.  We need to impeach him some how and  get him out of office before we send our kids and and friends into a stupid war.  this man is out of control thaat is my opinion now I can't use opioids for my pain control so I switch to to drinking which I don't really like  thank you arizona you are bullshit any more fuck this town.

Fear and Loathing in Phoenix

I had been hanging outside of the venue waiting for the speech to end up I was covering Trump's Phoenix speech for a local news rag just to keep me a float.  I was outside taking a smoke break when a black limo pulled up and grabbed me from behind.  "Are you ready for the night of your life?"  the very distinct voice came from behind me, it was the Donald!!!  Damn I didn't expect an exclusive or anything "I saw you over there in the press pit and it looked like you needed some time out of the pit."  I didn't know what to say but went along with it all.  Thomas Payne is the name and I am trying to write up an article on you sir, what can you tell me?  "Ahh Fuck that let's have some fun we're gonna go and get a friend of mine to paint this town red.  Hey Walden, the driver, let's go and get Joe.  Next thing I knew we were joined by Sheriff Joe Arpaio.  Damn to right wing nutters in a limo with a libertine this can't end well.

We pulled up to some casino and went in the back way to cut down on the papacrappi  we were whisked into an elevator and up to a hotel room.  "Anything you need we can get for you sir (an Indian porter told me as I cradled my champagne from the waitress outside)"  I sat down and tried to get my mind around what was happening President Donald was yelling orders into a phone while Sheriff Joe rocked back and forth repeating "this is gonna be great"

Ten minutes later a group of girls showed up with a dealer and some casino games.  we had our own private casino in the penthouse suite of some casino in Phoenix that I didn't even know about.  The Donald was doing blow off of the hookers ass while sheriff Joe was running around wanting to be butt fucked by some Latina hooker.  I just sat down and started playing Blackjack.  After about fifty minutes Donald wanted a Mexican Water show and Sheriff Joe wasn't far behind.  I stepped out for a smoke on the patio with a girl named Linda who was corralled into the whole party thing, she was working on her bachelor's at ASU in Nursing and this is how she paid her way through college.  It never bothered me so I gave her my winnings from the Blackjack table.  I asked the porter if he had any whip-its or if he could procure some for me and Linda  in less than five minutes we had a full tank of nitrous oxide keeping us laughing all night long.  We watched while The Donald built a wall of dead soldiers (Tecate he likes the mexicana).  And then demolish it while A half naked Sheriff Joe Bounced around pulling over latina hookers and paying them in blow.  What A night then I called for turkey bowling via room service.  To Be Continued...

George Orwell's self-fulfilling prophecy

Today I visited a few stores for prescriptions and my daily meals.  At almost every store there was an armed security guard.  Hell, I went to church on Sunday and there was an armed security guard.  I think some how we have become a Police state without any one saying anything about it.  Everywhere we go we are be recorded on video.  Everything is set up to watch you and anything that you do.  When I taught in a urban school in Alaska we had an armed Police officer. I think is more unsettling at least to me that there is someone there with a gun, that only has one purpose.  I don't like it, I don't like it at all next thing you know they are going to start checking our ID's (papers).  It just makes feel that we in some way are giving over our rights to the new American Gestapo.  Whether we like it or not we are becoming a fascist society.  we need to stop it before it gets to far out of reach or maybe it already has?!?!?!?!?!?!

I thank God that we have the for sight to stop it I think.  It seems that a few bad apples have made a mass hysteria for the rest of us and we are giving up our rights as citizens.

Or maybe I am just over blowing it  but I leave you with this:
                
Rise Against- the violence

I do love you all but I hate guns, we shouldn't have them in places to make us feel safe, at least I my self feel that just makes me feel uneasy.

Addenda

In light of my friendships to many people I am leaving the names out of this addenda.  But if you need to lie to me at least tell me that 3 inches is equal to 6 inches if your going to fuck me.

I've got some bitching to do and no one is safe.

Last night I went to the free Sugar Ray concert after the Diamondbacks game.  Now I don't usually bitch about other artist, well some times.  It turned out to be Mark McGrath and a drummer playing to a backing track doing songs from Sugar Ray and then other peoples tunes like Smash Mouth, EMF and House of Pain amongst others.  I thought it was pretty bogus but they were pushing Crystal Pepsi from the 90's and were focused on some songs from that era.  But still it was pretty Lame.  At least I got three T-shirts out of the show.

I lost my ID and then I tried to get my prescription for Oxycodone for my back, and yes I am seeing a pain specialist but the script was from my Primary Practitioner.  Walgreens in their infinite wisdom tells me that they cannot fill it but if I get a script for Percocet from the ER then they did.  and thus told me that they would no longer fill any scripts from an ER or short term painkillers.  I had a script from My Doctor for 90 pills and they wouldn't fill it.  They will gladly fill any other script from an urgent care or outside doctor save for my Pain pills.  I am sorry that I broke my back three times and have a disease that causes me to have chronic kidney stones (Renal Tubular Acidosis type 2) but I will gladly take my ibuprofen that my kidney doctor says is bad for me or the tylenol that will FUCK up my liver.  SO FUCK You TRUMP all about the Opioid epidemic.  The war on drugs has never been won nor will it ever.  Look at other countries and see how they tackle it.  I am just going to get my Medical Marijuana card and get extremely paranoid.

So back to my ID I am hoping that MY Alaskan ID is at Yellow Cab and I will try to get over there next monday I made it there last Saturday but told to come back on Monday.  I also lost my wallet that had my Food Stamps card so now I am sans ID, Library Card, Food Stamps, Social Security and Insurance Card.  FUCK MY LIFE, EH!?!??!?

So what to bitch about now, Hmm...Ok, Trump all though it is way to easy to complain about this moronic idiot that doesn't know his thumb from his big toe.  I don't know if North Korea has the tools to contrive a nuclear war.  I do know that they could easily blow the shit out of South Korea and I think that Kim Jong Il is just about crazy enough to do something like that.  Now I don't think that we should condemn the North Koreans for having a Nuclear Program nor do I believe that we should hinder any country from developing a Nuclear Program.  That is their right as a sovereign nation just like we did or Russia or any other Nuclear power.  Now do I think that he is a mad man, Hell yeah but than again so is Donald Trump.  He is worse than my old Uncle in Philly who would rant about the African-Americans, The Italians, The Jews and any other minority that got his jib at the time and of course he was not politically correct by any means.  I think the only ethnic group he sided with was the Irish because he was of that descent.

I am worried about My kids and Ex-wife and friends in Alaska because I think if the North Koreans were going to move forward they would go there first.  And remember AK was the only state other than Hawaii to see any action during World War 2.  You might not know it but it is true so I would not put it past them by any means.  With that said I need to thank two Republicans namely Lisa Murkowski and John McCain.  They both stepped up and said no to Trump and the Senate to keep Insurance for all Americans.

Not that anything I say will change the minds of any one or public opinion in any way but I need to give my two cents so there you go and apparently I've got 2 dollars and no sense.

Much love to you all and remember to let your freak flags fly!!!!

A moment in drunken history!!!

One of my favorite shows is Drunken History on Comedy Central.  If I could show it in classes I probably would but until then I would recommend everyone to watch it.  So I thought that it went national this week when I saw the reviews coming in from Trump's trip European trip.  WHAT THE FUCK!!!  Who the hell did the Electoral College elect to lead us into the grave.  A total Fuck nut and a half.  I realize he is already worse than Reagan was and kinda liked old Reagan, It wasn't til college that I truly realized how fucked up his administration was.  But this is bad.

Pulling out of the Paris Accord is Bad, just Bad.  I know that he wants to repeal NAFTA over twenty years of getting fat off of it but fucking up everything that we have worked for is monumentally stupid.  Now I could sit here and spout Expletives about it but what good does it do now is the time to start using our combined smarts and work around this idiocy.  Whether or not you like this is happening to our planet.  Now you can sit back and say it is God or Allah or whatever But WAKE THE FUCK UP!!  Go ahead and pray all you want but things aren't going to change until we change.  Get up off of our fat asses and start making a difference.  Once a species is gone, guess what...It's gone.  Bringing back the Mastodon is a pipe dream people what is the sense in it. it wouldn't survive.  We have screwed up our environment.  We use to many plastic bags that go to the dump and then blow out and destroy the environment and kill animals.  The more we kill off the insets that eat our wastes the worse the planet gets.  The reason that we bacteria is to bio degrade our dead and rotting bodies but what do we do we shove the the dead into boxes and embalm for years on end.  We have this fear of change that we need to get over and accept that the only way we progress as a society and a world is to change.  Buddhists change with new science realizations and thank the Gods that we have a progressive pope who is embracing change,  We need to stop living in the past and move with the waves that we are given.

I know that there is a rift that has polarized our political climate and that only causes gridlock.  I am asking to put aside petty differences and look at what we have right now and how can we make it better.  If not that then go and Fuck yourselves!!!

Last thing,  It is fucking hot here in PHX I don't know how you all do it I am so in need of a pool day, If any one has a pool I promise to bring the food lets have a cook out and relax from the heat.  Also I am working on getting my Fat ass down to Tucson to actually record and hopefully play some shows if I can line them up.  I hate being stagnant and I feel Like I am right now but.  It is getting better I am getting better both physically and Mentally.  I've got close to 4 months sober now so I am feeling pretty good about that.  Peace out to you all and have a great day.!!  Much Love and good Karma to you all!!

The times they are a changin' mark 2.0

The times they are a changing
this we all know and see
the pipelines are a leaking
and no one wants to clean it up
I guess that we're just fucked
we build a wall to hide our
fears and forget the other side
I guess you can't choose your
neighbors, but that's ok we'll
call the cops we don't like them
any way.

And what about that medicine
that you need to keep alive
we'll just go and charge alot
it's noit really a crime
Thomas Payne wrote a thing
but that's ok we don't need it
we got diamonds and we're rich
fuck the other guy that always
been our creed we don't give a
flying fuck about anything
the Apache or the Cree.

Well Donald Trump will steal your
gold it's just business any way
I never had a better friend help
me out in such a way
Jesus taught things in parables
any way It's all for interpretation
this way or that a way...
Our religions better than yours
because we don't have to pay
but in this climate it doesn't matter
any way we'll register you as christian
or a Jew, a Muslim or a Buddhist we don't
care in this store just give us all your
money before you walk out the door
thank you for you time it really was the best...

Ok here we go...

I feel I may need yo explain myself to my friends and colleagues in the great fight against the machine.

This is how I feel about the wall that the Donald wants to build:  There were some great walls in history the great wall of China, the walls of Jericho from the bible, the wall that divided east and west Berlin.  Now the Marshall plan was set out to help rebuild Europe after World War 2.

I apologize if my spelling is off or crazy my back was manipuplated by a physical therpist yesterday and now I have have shooting pains through my arms into my hands and legs and the CORE Insti4ute wont see me until Feb 2 so I am fucked up til them I guess.

Back to the Walls.  These walls were put up up to keep people out thus causing the feeling of you are our enemy and we want nothing to do with you.  This feeling increased over time and in the case of the Berlin wall it peaked in the cold awr during the 80's with Ronald Reagan and Gorbachevs reactions to each others foreign policies.  Now a wall to keep out Mexicans will only tell Mexico we do care about you and we think that you are our enemy.  we are not building a wall against Canada which have people crossing the borders alla of the time to get beer or prescription drugs and working in the US just like the Southern Border.  and I am sure that their are illegals that cross that border every day but we dont hear about it.

I understand the want for Isolationism in America to take care of our own and focus on our country rather than the rest of the world.  But we have aalready made a precedent that we are the worllds Police force and now things are running amok out in the boonies so what are we going to do]-.close up up and create out own Escape from New York type of scenarioas or be welcoming to our neighbors and be a freiendly nation that wants to trade and be great and move forward!!!

Sorry I have to stop now my fingers are freakeing the fuck out and jumping on there own to weird I gotta get some relief or this is going to kill me...Rhetorically of course that iss

Much loove to you all and I wiqll keedp up my daily things about trump simply because so many people did it to me when Obama took office.  Soory if you dont like and are thin skinned but suck it up buttercup this is the new world order!!

Gortdy peace our!!