I need to rant about something and this seems to be the best place to do it. I had some real bad issues going in my life and I tried to kill myself and I went to the hospital and then they moved me over to the crisis recovery center, which the people there are fantastic and wonderful. So after the CRC I was moved into the Chanlyut Program. Oh lordy,what do I have to say about that place. Chanlyut is a program for people coming right of jail and well I wasn't coming right out of jail. So I went into Chanlyut which is a big house full of ex-cons and drug abusers and you know my robitussin addiction is always on my mind. fuck you whoever makes robitussin I should sue your ass for destroying my life you mother , no wait motherfuckers is to good for them lets see...Trash can Fuckers there you go.
So any ways, I go in to the big house of Chanlyut and am immediateley thrown into a working crew that does the janitorial services for CITC (Cook inlet tribal council). so I did it I went to work and did that for a while a like few weeks and then they had me working with a crazy guy in the kitchen that made the worst kinds of diners that are out there. There was mouse shit in the pancake batter boxes and he just told me to scoop around it. What it came down to was that the guy wanted his friend to be at the house crew and started trying to trip me up so I would get in trouble and get moved over to the diner that they run in Mountain View. Well, let me tell you that the health department should take a good look at the diner and the way things are done. The director is an old felon and seems like a good guy when you are on his side wink wink knudge knudge. I was promised all these things that are going to occur over a long period of time . So, I work for you and do all of the shit that you want and I don't get paid I get room and board I understand that's good. The program is great except that it comes down to a napoleon complex with the director. So you know who you are you can go FUCK yourself fourteen ways from sunday with caramel on top.
Thank you Chanlyut for teaching me to lie and steal you took an honest man and turned it all around. thank you your right Change is possible!!!!
P.S. snitches get stitches, just sayin'
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Friday, January 4, 2013
Can I ride you Magic Bus
So, my time in palmer seems to have ended aas I finally made my way into Anchorage. A wonderful man, Sam gave me a room at the Valley hotel and a ride into ANC. As I make my way around I meet all kinds of people and to no matter what they are all interesting. I am really starting to think I need to find somewhere and put pen to paper and really write up my memoirs, but then again who would want to read anything by me.
So I got into town and I texted a former student of mine from Galena who picked me up from the bus depot, got some grub and put me up for the night. Jesse, thank you so much I appreciate everything you have done for me and truly mean it from the bottom of my heart.
I never realized how much a teacher is responsible for their students and how they shape and mould them I hope and pray that I have done a good job by all of my students. I think this is a common thread for all us educators especially in light of the Newton shootings. I would do anything to protect my children and I would the same for yours. God bless all of the teachers out there.
Ok, that is not where I wanted to go but it went there so be it.
On with the show.
I caught a bus over to Muldoon and found a computer in the library to check my stuff and rant my rant. and hopefully tomorrow I'll get to see the boys. Looking forward to it.
peace and love to you all,
GordyC
So I got into town and I texted a former student of mine from Galena who picked me up from the bus depot, got some grub and put me up for the night. Jesse, thank you so much I appreciate everything you have done for me and truly mean it from the bottom of my heart.
I never realized how much a teacher is responsible for their students and how they shape and mould them I hope and pray that I have done a good job by all of my students. I think this is a common thread for all us educators especially in light of the Newton shootings. I would do anything to protect my children and I would the same for yours. God bless all of the teachers out there.
Ok, that is not where I wanted to go but it went there so be it.
On with the show.
I caught a bus over to Muldoon and found a computer in the library to check my stuff and rant my rant. and hopefully tomorrow I'll get to see the boys. Looking forward to it.
peace and love to you all,
GordyC
Monday, December 24, 2012
Poem for Newtown
When you put your foot to the ground
you never know what you've found
as you make your way down the trail
every mile, minute or inch feels like a nail in your soul
you take the pain, but you feel no gain as you hit your stride
just forget about your pride
there is not much time inside
into the place without a face
step aside and hold to be
for what we are, we can't quite see
we need to stop and hold the line
and don't tell me that you are fine
there is no rhyme this time
they're dead,
they're gone
and
I
am
sad.
you never know what you've found
as you make your way down the trail
every mile, minute or inch feels like a nail in your soul
you take the pain, but you feel no gain as you hit your stride
just forget about your pride
there is not much time inside
into the place without a face
step aside and hold to be
for what we are, we can't quite see
we need to stop and hold the line
and don't tell me that you are fine
there is no rhyme this time
they're dead,
they're gone
and
I
am
sad.
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Emmet otter's jug band christmas
Does any one remember Jim Henson's Emmet Otter's Jug Band Christmas. It was the best show I ever saw for christmas. It summed up my life growing up with my mom back in philly and shoveling snow to get money for presents. We never had much and my mom worked all of the time, she was and always has been a great inspiration to me a true old german woman who will tear you a new one but be there for you in the end. I have not heard from her since before I went into the dream center I hope she is alright. I have called and sent letters to no avail. I do believe that no news is good news, though.
So Why did I get booted out of the Dream Center? That seems to be the question on everyone's mind it has to do with a number of incidents in which I broke the rules and it ultimately landed me out of the program. I have nothing but love for the center and the people there. They are wonderful and I hope to see them all again sometime. I made some good friends in there and I am hopeful that they will continue while I am on the outside.
Once a person is institutionalized the want for freedom becomes immense and I think that Is what I was after, I never want to be held down and forced to into rules that I don't agree with. Call me the constant rebel but I believe that we are free for a reason in this nation and I love it to no end.
The day I was booted out was the day of the Newtown shootings, what a horrible thing to happen and I see that the media and the president are jumping on the 2nd amendment control thing. There is something to be said for gun control, I don't have one nor do I like them very much, I would rather carry a sword and face a man to face. The sole purpose for a gun is to kill, hunters use them, I've used them but why do you need an ak-47 to hunt deer I don't understand, no wait I do when it is in your hands you feel in control and it is fun to rattle off those rounds but that is what the range is for. I would rather hunt with a bow than a gun just because I am afraid of them not the gun itself but what it can do and I am fearful of the person holding the gun. I don't know what is going through their head at any given time. I will take my son out for his first hunt when it is time so that I know he respects the tool that he has to feed his family not to be a control mechanism. So as for gun control I am against registering weapons but I think we need to clamp down on those that purchase guns at shows that might be a bit mental. I know that it is hypocritical and alot of things that bring balance to the unverse are we just need to look past that.
So Why did I get booted out of the Dream Center? That seems to be the question on everyone's mind it has to do with a number of incidents in which I broke the rules and it ultimately landed me out of the program. I have nothing but love for the center and the people there. They are wonderful and I hope to see them all again sometime. I made some good friends in there and I am hopeful that they will continue while I am on the outside.
Once a person is institutionalized the want for freedom becomes immense and I think that Is what I was after, I never want to be held down and forced to into rules that I don't agree with. Call me the constant rebel but I believe that we are free for a reason in this nation and I love it to no end.
The day I was booted out was the day of the Newtown shootings, what a horrible thing to happen and I see that the media and the president are jumping on the 2nd amendment control thing. There is something to be said for gun control, I don't have one nor do I like them very much, I would rather carry a sword and face a man to face. The sole purpose for a gun is to kill, hunters use them, I've used them but why do you need an ak-47 to hunt deer I don't understand, no wait I do when it is in your hands you feel in control and it is fun to rattle off those rounds but that is what the range is for. I would rather hunt with a bow than a gun just because I am afraid of them not the gun itself but what it can do and I am fearful of the person holding the gun. I don't know what is going through their head at any given time. I will take my son out for his first hunt when it is time so that I know he respects the tool that he has to feed his family not to be a control mechanism. So as for gun control I am against registering weapons but I think we need to clamp down on those that purchase guns at shows that might be a bit mental. I know that it is hypocritical and alot of things that bring balance to the unverse are we just need to look past that.
Saturday, October 13, 2012
The need to move forward
I have to rant about this idea that people of Congress are perpetuationg, the earth is only roughly 6 - 10,000 years old. Once again I rely on my love of History and Science to help the hopeless in understanding how the movers and the shakers have trimmed the conceptual horizon into something more understandable and feasible. (yeah that sounded pretentious, but what the hell it's my blog if you don't like it then bugger off)
Let's take for instance Galileo Galilee, The man who was placed under house arrest for his beliefs and use of the telescope to prove that we are not truly alone when it comes to our little neighborhood in the solar system. Or Rene' DesCartes use of algebra to create a movement of rationalism and coining the phrase, "I think therefore I am" allowing for the realisation that man has within him the potential for understanding his universe, These and countless other, DaVinci, Michaelangelo, et al. helped to move us from the dark ages into the renaissance and in turn allowed for personal assesment away from dictative dogma set by the growing influence of the church and state.
The Scientific Revolution allowed us to set aside the outdated traditional thinking and move to a more rational approach to science, medicine, mathematics, language and the arts. To step up and say in one sweeping assesment that all these years of discovery are simply the by-product of some huge conspiracy to keep the true knowlegde of the Earth's creation is not only foolish but downright ignorant. As I was raised ignorance is no excuse.
The hard and fast of it is that science has proven that all things are made of atoms and those atoms make up ccertain molecules into different tissues, organ, and systems or depending on the the molecules different inorganic substances. All of these molecules have a certain lifetime in which they breakdown, we call this a Half-Life. We can tell how old something is by reading the carbon atoms and where they are in their life cycle through a technique called Radio-Carbon Dating, say that with me. Fossils are not placed their by people over the the past thousands of years they are the remnants of living tissue petrified in some manner.
The truth of the matter is this I may be full of shit, science changes everyday just as the church changes it's rules and regs over the years. There really are no true solid facts in the world, save for a few. But in the end lets not use religious banter to direct legislation, we have moved beyond that as a society. Lets look to the best solutions for all involved.
Always remember Ben Franklin's quote, "Beer is proof that God loves us."
GordyC
Let's take for instance Galileo Galilee, The man who was placed under house arrest for his beliefs and use of the telescope to prove that we are not truly alone when it comes to our little neighborhood in the solar system. Or Rene' DesCartes use of algebra to create a movement of rationalism and coining the phrase, "I think therefore I am" allowing for the realisation that man has within him the potential for understanding his universe, These and countless other, DaVinci, Michaelangelo, et al. helped to move us from the dark ages into the renaissance and in turn allowed for personal assesment away from dictative dogma set by the growing influence of the church and state.
The Scientific Revolution allowed us to set aside the outdated traditional thinking and move to a more rational approach to science, medicine, mathematics, language and the arts. To step up and say in one sweeping assesment that all these years of discovery are simply the by-product of some huge conspiracy to keep the true knowlegde of the Earth's creation is not only foolish but downright ignorant. As I was raised ignorance is no excuse.
The hard and fast of it is that science has proven that all things are made of atoms and those atoms make up ccertain molecules into different tissues, organ, and systems or depending on the the molecules different inorganic substances. All of these molecules have a certain lifetime in which they breakdown, we call this a Half-Life. We can tell how old something is by reading the carbon atoms and where they are in their life cycle through a technique called Radio-Carbon Dating, say that with me. Fossils are not placed their by people over the the past thousands of years they are the remnants of living tissue petrified in some manner.
The truth of the matter is this I may be full of shit, science changes everyday just as the church changes it's rules and regs over the years. There really are no true solid facts in the world, save for a few. But in the end lets not use religious banter to direct legislation, we have moved beyond that as a society. Lets look to the best solutions for all involved.
Always remember Ben Franklin's quote, "Beer is proof that God loves us."
GordyC
Monday, October 8, 2012
My New Movie concept
Ok so here we go with my new take on "The Grifters"
Scene one:
Find a an old lady with a pension and a son that is struggling with lots of things.
Scene two:
Wait for the son to screw up and then move in to get the old ladies attention and get her on your side.
Scene three:
Move the old lady out of state asap providing her with flush funds for the ride.
Scene four:
Have the old lady send a 1000.00 dollars to help her son with rehab through the church.
Scene five:
Start telling everybody that you have spent your life savings and can't do anything we need that money back and the old lady is now broke. So we have to put her in a home, but the Air Force pension and social security checks will come into the acount that we have set up for you here at the bank.
Scene Six:
Tell other people that the son can talk to his mom but, Not really...that would screw things up and always listen to the phone calls closely and monitor any and all e-mail accounts.
Scene Seven:
Son gets really pissed off and is ready to bring down holy hell upon Barbie and Skip!!!!
Fuck You Do you think I am that stupid you motherfuckers I am calling you out right now.
Scene one:
Find a an old lady with a pension and a son that is struggling with lots of things.
Scene two:
Wait for the son to screw up and then move in to get the old ladies attention and get her on your side.
Scene three:
Move the old lady out of state asap providing her with flush funds for the ride.
Scene four:
Have the old lady send a 1000.00 dollars to help her son with rehab through the church.
Scene five:
Start telling everybody that you have spent your life savings and can't do anything we need that money back and the old lady is now broke. So we have to put her in a home, but the Air Force pension and social security checks will come into the acount that we have set up for you here at the bank.
Scene Six:
Tell other people that the son can talk to his mom but, Not really...that would screw things up and always listen to the phone calls closely and monitor any and all e-mail accounts.
Scene Seven:
Son gets really pissed off and is ready to bring down holy hell upon Barbie and Skip!!!!
Fuck You Do you think I am that stupid you motherfuckers I am calling you out right now.
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
The death of a fag.
No, I am not inciting homosexual hatred get your mind out of the gutter. Yesterday, Palmer was one more town on the chopping block for banning smoking and it did.. (A fag is british for ciggarette, you insolent drools) This is how I take the whole thing in. It is not just a question of smoking but rights that we have as individuals in this country.
Imagine if you would a a big block of wood sitting on a desk and you have a hatchet. Everytime a new law is passed that breaks down citizens rights you cleave a little bit off of the block of wood. Now we have to take a huge chunk out of it for the Patriot Act thank you George the lesser, not that his dad was much better with his thousand points of light. Idiot. Now we have to start wittling off for other things as well taxes, healthcare, TV's all have to be digital, oil, and new regulations on whether or not Pizza is a vegetable. Come on... we have hacked the the block of wood in half by now and now one more little bit. We as a nation can't see the forest for the trees. Every little liberty that is taken away will never be given back again without a fight. We know that standardized testing is stupid with all of the available research yet NCLB is still in effect in many states.
Yes, Smoking is bad for you I know it led to my own father's death and I am still smoking today and I want to quit, yes and I do at times for extended periods and someday I will but it will be MY choice not the governments not yours not his or hers but by my choice. Thank you and good night.
Imagine if you would a a big block of wood sitting on a desk and you have a hatchet. Everytime a new law is passed that breaks down citizens rights you cleave a little bit off of the block of wood. Now we have to take a huge chunk out of it for the Patriot Act thank you George the lesser, not that his dad was much better with his thousand points of light. Idiot. Now we have to start wittling off for other things as well taxes, healthcare, TV's all have to be digital, oil, and new regulations on whether or not Pizza is a vegetable. Come on... we have hacked the the block of wood in half by now and now one more little bit. We as a nation can't see the forest for the trees. Every little liberty that is taken away will never be given back again without a fight. We know that standardized testing is stupid with all of the available research yet NCLB is still in effect in many states.
Yes, Smoking is bad for you I know it led to my own father's death and I am still smoking today and I want to quit, yes and I do at times for extended periods and someday I will but it will be MY choice not the governments not yours not his or hers but by my choice. Thank you and good night.
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